Nothingness

Wow! I did not realise it's been quite so long! Although in my defence, I have been fairly busy of late. As usual, there's not a whole lot of excitement here. I've just returned from a weekend in Plymouth with my sister, celebrating a friend's birthday. I always love going back there. It's a place that has so many happy memories for me and is still home to many of my favourite people. Truth be told, I don't really want to be back. While I have become more accepting of my current situation it is still far from ideal. Family tend to have that amazing knack for making you feel rather smothered . This it seems is particularly true if you happen to be in the unfortunate position of being somewhere where there is no one else to escape to. Don't get me wrong, I love them to bits, but there's only so much anyone can take. I guess the same is true of living with anyone- friends, family, partners- it's just that under normal circumstances there are other people to provide relief.
I think maybe what I need is a serious goal to aim for: A clear-cut reason for me to be stuck here slowly festering away. I feel like I'm jus drifting into nothingness and while that may be acceptable for some, I am getting rather frustrated with it all now. I need to get my thinking cap on and start sorting out what exactly to do next. I've already been making do for longer than I'd hoped! Time to get off my arse and SORT MY LIFE OUT! xD